I remember your heart-wrenching and very raw posts when I first got here 2 years ago. I just read your thread and recent very big updates.
I'm so sorry about where things are turning.
I was very hopeful that it was working out for you.
I will say this. I remember you describing your past, the man you were before this forced you into a transformation you liked.
Don't forget any of that. Now, you see very clearly, the benefits were not for the M, but rather for YOU. You have healed, grown and developed in so many ways.
Always be proud of that. Always be proud of the man you chose to become, in the toughest of circumstances.
This is about her. This is not your failure or shame, though those feelings are hard to shake....I know.
