No. Everything I do is not done with "her" in mind. I am working, thinking, planning on what I want to do for myself. I'm only thinking of what to do in terms of when/if to contact her on March 1. I really am doing OK. Before she came along I was usually quite happy alone. I love to read, cook, just be in my house having fun. I have plenty of family & friends for when I do need to get out. But I'm coming back around to enjoying my home again. I admit most of my reading however, is done with relationships in mind. Next time, I want to do it right whether it's with her or someone else. Today, for the first time, I actually thought, I'll be OK if she doesn't come back. I have hope that the "right person" and I will meet in the not too distant future.
I can't relate to the nails thing. Actually, she was very good at not having any expectations from me at all. Maybe, the things that I also like, she liked, such as my perfume (I was wearing it before I ever met her), my long hair (again, it was long before I met her). She really was good at giving me space, freedom to be who I wanted to be, etc. I just sucked at all those things.
Don't worry. I am not putting anything on hold. I am moving on. Trying to get a life. Trying to be happy, confident, independent, etc. Thinking of going out with others. I will simply contact her to "test the waters." I am a "one-woman" woman. Even though we weren't "married", I felt as if we were, would have stayed with her and worked on the relationship for as long as it took, etc. I take relationships very seriously and would rather fix what I have than trade her in for a newer model.
What is your advice regarding the contact? Text message, card in the mail or phone call? I really like to plan in advance. Ha. Ha.
Thanks for the hugs! And I hope your situation is improving.
