Worried I found DB too late

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We are living the same marriage. My husband has always been "the rock." When we were dating, he asked me about my first husband and I said that he had a really rough childhood, that there was nobody there for him, so he always looked out for number one, himself. My husband replied, "Well, that's one way to look at it. Or you can become the person upon whom people can depend." I still remember it clear as day. He was that guy. Until now.

People have always, even recently, talked about how great we are together, how well we work together. We spent a weekend away without the kids a few months ago and one the couple we visited said, "well, look at you guys. You're strong." And we looked at each other and laughed.

I noticed our distance the past year or so, but he chalked it up to work. There was a lot going on there, so it made sense to me. I just thought that our marriage, our commitment was stronger. Our sex life has always been good. A bit slower with the kids, but still good. Even he says that. Between the bomb and our separation, it was awesome.

I guess I just don't understand what he would need to think he could come back.