Tackling MY Future with Enjoyment!

[Jeanette1120]

I had a totally selfish yet realistic thought last night as I lay in bed trying to go to sleep, but kept thinking instead.

So lets say Rich was there for Teddy while he went through his divorce as any friend should be, but once divorce was over it turned into a single man and a married troubled man who spend ALOT OF TIME TOGETHER.

Now Teddy is alone again (and I truly am sorry for this) so, my selfish side says once again, there is no room for me

It's like there is this cloud of doom that hovers over Teddy's head, or maybe it's Rich's head and Teddy is just always there? But even back 2 years before I seperation when we went to Rich's 20th year high school reunion, Teddy so wanted to see this one girl. MARLA......well, we all did. We all had fun. We all went out after the reunion. But it was MY H whom had a 2500.00 cell phone bill from talking to her (2months worth) it was my H who secretly flew to NY 2x to see her. It was my H who begged to come home after I found out....of course Rich said he was only trying to help her as she had 4 kids and a bad marriage.

Things were absolutly beautiful the year and few months that followed, then Teddy stepped back in the pic with his divorce..

Am i wrong for thinking these thoughts? Am I wrong for thinking these thoughts?? Or am I just looking for an easy target?

Yes I know I played my part....I've explained that I felt neglected and did not handle it properly AT ALL. I mean, it got so bad between him and Teddy I told Rich to take him and his faggot MFing friend and leave.........4 months later they did.

Hellooooooooo past!! It's all coming back to me now. Bleh