Peace, Don't the dreams/nightmares stink. I have them all the time and they are almost never good and I wake up every morning or sometimes several times through out the night in panicking sweats. I hate sleeping now and it used to be one of my favorite things to do.
Trust in your intuition, we all have that gut feeling one way or the other, and I agree that when it is finally time to throw in the towel we will just know it. Hopefully we can all outlast that giving up type of feeling, and DB till the cows come home.
My H has also changed his wording every time he has told me that he needed/wanted to leave. He can't even keep his own reasoning straight. First it was because he was an angry alcoholic, then it was becuase I caused his bankruptcy, then it was becuase I never supported him, then Because I wouldn't find new friends to hang out with & I am too tribal, then because I didn't give him enough sex, then cause he has a new found confidence in his new business and doesn't have the time or energy to work on the marriage, and his latest reason he gave me is because he felt he was suffocating. Talk about confusion. They are all completely out of their minds due to depression. At one point, he visited me last summer I called him on it and said to him: "I don't even think you know the real reason you are leaving me, and that you cant even put your finger on it yourself" this infuriated him. He started to call me names (even a lesbian) and I told him to leave then and there. I guess we all just have to put up with their craziness as long as we can, but it really helps to stay busy and to GAL (like doing your line-dancing). Keep it up and good for you, enjoy it! TIPPER
