Journaling,

Today was nice. Had a great day at work. W is a little upset because the job only paid $15.00 hr and she feels she is worth more. So she turned it down...
Anyway I worked on son's tree house. Cleaned the fish tank and got plenty of fish and dog food so W will not have to worry about it when I am gone. Worked on son's home work. (I work more on his the I ever worked on mine). Took two shots of jack Daniels then took a shower and went into living room where W sits and watches her soaps... I asked her if she can please stand up. She looked at me annoyed and asked why? I said because I want ya too. With a moan she stood up and I grabbed her hand and held it and said. XXXXX you know you don't turn 50 everyday. and I would like to get a pizza for your mom and (son) and would like you and I to go out to dinner at XXXXX (the place we used to go burnt down and a new place by the same owners opened there) she was trying to figure out the name and I said don't worry about it I will make the reservations. She said OK.

SOOOO I am going to diner on Friday with my wife...

Now do not get you panties all on a wad... she seemed annoyed with me, I don’t think she is really looking forward to this...Oh well I tried. You all know I have been trying for so long. I don’t think anything I do will change her mind... Sorry but I do believe she has lost her love for me... hey it happens.... I’m ok.... she is fine until I say or do something that would make us a couple....4 more day till VEGAS


And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know