Going to first MC session tomorrow...I was okay up until today but now starting to get a little anxious. In a way, I'm surprised because I thought I would be more excited, since this is something I wanted. I think I'm just not too hopeful. She emailed to say she's "looking forward to seeing me--and anxious too!". That's about the warmest statement I've heard in 2 1/2 months!
Guess I'm not sure on how to "be" during the session...I know I need to go in with PMA and not be acting like I'm going to a funeral! At the same time, this is and has been really hard for me...not sure how to show that I'm okay when I still feel really messed up inside. I want to be real about it, you know?
I think this will (hopefully) be just another positive conversation with someone to help us through...doubt that any major revelations will occur either way. Must prep so that I don't get defensive, but I don't want to over prepare as though it's rehearsed, because that doesn't feel right.
Arg!! Breathing is good, maybe try that for awhile and chill out.
Oh, and a backsliding confession: I offered to either meet her there or pick her up (work close by to her)...damn! Should have just left it. Maybe it's better to arrive separately, and then from there we can either hang out or leave separately too.
