Kalni, I've read up on your sitch. Sorry you've been on a rollercoaster.
Don't send H that letter (at least not yet). Take some time to think about it first. You're going through a very hard time, your kids are sick, Valentine's Day is coming up (which is affecting all of us). Just take some time to calm yourself down before you do anything you may regret.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz