Today was nice. Had a great day at work. W is a little upset because the job only paid $15.00 hr and she feels she is worth more. So she turned it down... Anyway I worked on son's tree house. Cleaned the fish tank and got plenty of fish and dog food so W will not have to worry about it when I am gone. Worked on son's home work. (I work more on his the I ever worked on mine). Took two shots of jack Daniels then took a shower and went into living room where W sits and watches her soaps... I asked her if she can please stand up. She looked at me annoyed and asked why? I said because I want ya too. With a moan she stood up and I grabbed her hand and held it and said. XXXXX you know you don't turn 50 everyday. and I would like to get a pizza for your mom and (son) and would like you and I to go out to dinner at XXXXX (the place we used to go burnt down and a new place by the same owners opened there) she was trying to figure out the name and I said don't worry about it I will make the reservations. She said OK.
SOOOO I am going to diner on Friday with my wife...
Now do not get you panties all on a wad... she seemed annoyed with me, I don’t think she is really looking forward to this...Oh well I tried. You all know I have been trying for so long. I don’t think anything I do will change her mind... Sorry but I do believe she has lost her love for me... hey it happens.... I’m ok.... she is fine until I say or do something that would make us a couple....4 more day till VEGAS
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Hey Doc, All you can do is exactly what you are doing. You know you are doing your best, what more can you ask for? I'm proud of you for asking her. You just never know how the night will turn out. Make sure you smell good...women can't resist nice smelling cologne. MMMMMMM.....
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Ok I have FINELY come to the realization that the cheating was NOT the problem in my sitch. YES there was no real excuse for this, and No matter what I do I will NEVER get over the HURT... In my sitch I think that my W "affair" is more of a symptom that the actual Disease...
Seeing the forest through the trees and all that. Doctor Love, I swear this thought has only come to my mind lately and its entirely true in my situation as well. A = symptom only. People even told me that in the beginning but I never saw it til lately. Amazing, isn't it?
So, Doctor Love, if I mail you $20, will you make me some BIG money in Vegas?
You know, I always though it was easier to find another job once you were in a job. I think your W was stupid to knock back the temp job.
Well done on the reservations - she was probably just a bit low about the dinner thing as the job turned out to not be what she expected and she was trying to forget a sh!tty experience by getting lost in her soaps - don't take it personally.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
I know for a FACT... That when things are bothering you and you feel you don't have anybody to tell... or just talk to it sucks... I mean I have all of you but it still stops short of a "one on one"... I think this may also be the problem with my W. For some unknown reason she feels that she can't talk to me. I think it has become a "war of Detaching / PMA" She is acting like she does not need me and has a positive attitude (sometimes) and I am doing the same... I am going to make an effort in the next 4 days to get her to tell me how she feels... NOT about our R just open the door and see where it goes... I mean I have asked her how things went let her say a few words then went about my business. But I think I may need to hang around a little...
I was starting to think maybe she is being like LWB's H and WANTS me to find someone else.... Maybe so she can feel better about herself if I did the same thing... Or just so I will leave her an excuse..... SHE ASKES NO QUESTIONS about ME... what my plans are or who I am going with. I don't know if it is her way of detaching but it makes me feel like I could tell her I am going with a woman and she would not say anything... Got your e-mail Saffie and I will get back to ya soon... Thanks
I have not worn my wedding ring now for the last month. It sits on my Computer key board.. W see’s it every day sitting there… I am going to put it back on Friday
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Pisces February 19 - March 20 Someone for whom you have a soft spot is putting you to the test right now. You have a lot of patience, and they are all too aware of it. It's not that they are taking advantage of you, it's just that they are not taking your deadline requests seriously enough. If they keep stalling for time, pressing them to hurry up could only trigger a power play, so be careful. You don't want to make them think that they're not meeting your expectations. Just keep waiting.
What the heck is this supposed to mean??
Leo July 23 - August 22 A caustic remark that you recently overheard wasn't actually about you, like you thought that it was -- so do not worry at all about your reputation! It is still as stellar as it deserves to be, especially to those who matter most. Plus, you can't be friends with everyone, so why even care if you do happen to hear some negative feedback? What's important is that you are friends with the people who deserve your time. The fact is, some people in your life don't deserve to be there.
Virgo August 23 - September 22 Your pending travel plans might have to get revised slightly, today, when you come across some news. Last minute changes are required. This one small snag could leave you feeling rushed if you don't check in with your traveling companion to find out what they think about it. They will know how to say what you need to hear to relax about the whole thing. As long as you expect the best possible outcome, things will go in your favor, more times than not
NikB, Where you planning to meet me in Vegas??????
Aquarius January 20 - February 18 Do you have unfinished business with one of your old relatives? Think about it. Does a forgotten birthday or a belated wedding present come to mind? Make sure you are up to date with family members. Call a sibling or parents who can help you solve this puzzle and advise you on correcting any problem situations. Whoever is waiting to hear from you has a longer memory than you do, but they also have a huge heart. Don't worry about anger or hurt feelings. They just want to hear from you!
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
