Lot's of good advice and words of wisdom. Thank you to you all!!! Through the teachings of Retro we have been doing some reminiscing, and connecting on a different level. It all makes me feel very safe and I know that my H is a good man.
I wouldn't be telling the truth if i said he would never do anything to hurt me or do anything underhanded to get what he wants - BUT having said that I have to think that the passed 6 months have brought out the absolute worst in him. He did everything he could to put a wedge between me and OG, conspired in a way that I would never have thought he possibly could. and to be honest that scares me a bit. I saw a side of him that i never knew existed - and will hopefully stay gone for good now.
So, i am continuing the things learned in Retro, will keep any and all advice in the back of my mind and refer to it often. I have to say, getting over OG is difficult. i thought if i immersed myself in the R with H, and my kids, etc those feelings would just go away. They are taking a lot longer to fade than i had anticipated. They seem to be going and then something will bring it all back - a song, or i'll see something that previously was very superficial now has a completely different meaning to me. It's frutstrating to make sense of it all.
I'm going to have to look up that Schenk (sp?) person and the survey mentioned here. Maybe can learn something there too.
Thank you all for your support. Any advice on getting over OG would be helpful. And more advice or kind words on how to develop those desire feelings for H would be MOST appreciated.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,rather by the moments that take our breath away. M38,H40 M14 K D11 S8 D - June 09