I want to start this thread by thanking everyone for the support you've given me. I don't know where I'd be right now without the people on these BB's. You guys rock!
I don't really have much to add to last nights post.
I'm still trying to stay focused on my personal goals that I listed on my last thread. I am really sware of the need to focus on myself and find myself so to speak (hence Finding Supermom) I'm going to post my goals again to remind myself!
1) I have tendency to always worry about what others think of me and if I'm being judged. GOAL: I will not dwell on what others may be thinking. I'll be true to myself and have confidence in my decisions without feeling the need to justify or explain to others.
2) I have a bit of a fear of being alone. As a result I've really leaned on a lot of people during this time (rightfully so), but I need to feel comfortable on my own. GOAL: To not try to fill every moment with friends. Enjoy time spent with me and start to do things just for and about me. Like Yoga. And reading. And knitting. I could go on and on...
3) I want to be more easy going. I have a habit of getting caught up in the routines and schedules andd little details of everyday life as a mom of 2 little ones and I just need to back off and let things play out. GOAL: Back off sometimes and just go with the flow.
4) Patience patience patience. I need to be more patient. This goes hand in hand with #3. GOAL: Stop looking for all the all actions and answers immediately and just back off and go with the flow. This goes fors my DB efforts as well as something as simple as giving my D bath and getting her into bed. Patience is afterall a virtue!
5) Stop talking to friends and family constantly about my sitch. I think that one is self explanatory.
I have one more to add that is specific to DB'ing...
6) Start acting happy in front of H. Fake it 'til I make. I know I've been up and down in this area and I need to be more consistant.
That's it for now! J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
