Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

[Treese]

LMG;

Of course, H thinks the idea of an MLC is simplistic. He says he hasn't been happy in our M for several years and he likes me, but doesn't love me the right way. He was playing a role and now he has uncovered the true him. I don't know--it is so uncharacteristic of him to act like this, to say these things, that when I read about MLC, I think of course that's what it is.

I can't tell you how good it is to hear these words from several others...Yep...I got almost the exact words from my H...that he's been living a lie for 10, 7, 5, now forever...he's not "in love" with me anymore.. wow...I'm learning the script word for word...how about, that sex was beginning to be a chore. Wow, we've ML 3x a week for years and then I get that..now I dont' believe anything he says..really..sometimes he catches me and I think everything he is saying is so true, cause how can he be so sure of himself and look at me and tell me the things he does..I think he just wants to make me mad enough at him that I'll say okay, we're done...

you have to read the book by Denise Jackson, It's all about HIm.
I read it in a day..same thing happened to her H..

My H left after almost 7 months of walking on egg shells..I have to say the tension is less but I miss him terribly.. He doesn't call me at all but does call the kids, not every day though..He's only seen them a few hours in two weeks. That hurts but I'm dealing..I do cry a lot but not in front of him any longer or my kids if I can help it.

I met someone over the weekend who this all just happened to..I guess God put her in my path to help me.. She said don't give up. and that she did it all wrong which lengthened everything. she pleaded, cried, etc. and of course it drives them further away..after she left him alone...he came home.. I'm praying for that..I have not called at all or emailed unless it was about the kids...a real 180 for me..

Anyway, I wanted you to know I feel your pain, and vent all you want, it does help..

I am going on retreat for 4 days and looking forward to handing it all back to God..

Take Care.
Treese