respond or stay still?

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Acj
I had this same thought but just not sure how to turn it all around
now.

I feel as though since last June I have blown it totally. I react
though now I no longer email things to him when I react I still feel it inside and let it brew.

I looked at his comment as him realizing that he has done a lot of damage and that I will be upset.

I found it so weird that he asked me about what I found online about the treatments for his sisters CA. Like he never bothered to look it up?
anyway he blew me away when he said that he is so proud of her for being so brave. That she is so positive.
now... this is a woman who has never once in the 27 yr I have known her to be positive. But the world revolves around her is how she was.
Well now the world is revolving around her so maybe she is in a state of happy. so so sad that now the family feels the need
to be together... after yrs of not being a family and not seeing ea other but once a yr.

H had a bit of jealousy in his tone when he said that his dad and his wife and an aunt were going on a cruise with his sister. She had never been on a cruise.

I guess I would need to leave memories for people and not do the things I did not find time to do in life.
I am just different

Need to definitely change my attitude this I know

I got upset when talking about his sister and did not attempt to hug him or ask for a hug.. I stayed my distance

Now... there was no mention of the L's letter or the papers he has yet to give me....

what do you think of this????