Moving on from WAS

[mako]

Tonight I emailed W about some bills, just business stuff. I also said that I really appreciated her phone call, and that I too had some things to say. But I need to think those things over a little more though and will tell her when the time is right.

Basically, I want to tell her I forgive her. She has said she is sorry for how she has treated me, and I forgive her for that, so I want to tell her so.

I also want to tell her I forgive her for leaving me. I understand why she had to do this; I wish it could have happened differently, but I forgive her. She has never apologized for that though, she probably isn't sorry because she feels that's what she had to do, so I'm not sure if that's the right thing to do. I'll have to think about that some more.

I also may want to apologize myself...I haven't always been great after the bomb, it took me a while to really understand what she went through and how she was feeling, and I didn't treat her very nicely at times. Again, I'm not exactly sure if that's appropriate right now, so I'll think that over.

Anyway, she wrote back quickly and said that it was really nice to talk to me, she thought about emailing it but thought she needed to tell me, for me and for her. And whenever I am ready to talk to her she is available. Quick replies haven't been her thing since she left (though she has been better about it lately) so that's nice. Now to figure out what I want to say...