Yes, patience seems to be the hardest part of all of this.
Ok, I am really frustrated with H right now. He is so depressing! So I went with him yesterday to apply for some jobs. He went to two places and he was done!! I had like 10 different places to go to but he would only go to the two. He is being so picky. He REALLY needs to grow up. You can't be too picky when you have NO money.
I was at his apt. last night and I was just really ready to leave...I ended up leaving kind of early. I was so bored and he is so depressing. I have spent all this time working on myself and he is just the same old person. No changes, no improvements. Shouldn't it occur to him that HE is the reason he is unhappy??? For the first time I am feeling like I am not sure if I want to reconcile. I love him and I care about him...but I'm just not feeling it right now. I can't be the only one putting in the effort.
I am not calling him for a while. If he wants to call me then fine. If he needs help then fine, I have told him I will help him. But I won't constantly check on him, I won't spend my time worrying about him. I am just backing off. He can take the lead. If he untimately decides he wants to work on this then he will have to put more effort and change some things on his end too. If he isn't willing to do that then this may not work out.
