I'm pretty sure we can't afford to sell the house right now. I'm going to make that case to my L and make sure he relays it to W. She didn't think everything through and I need to make sure to slow everything down and make sure she has plenty of time to realize this is big time stuff here and not a quick and easy game.
As for hope, I won't give it up. I'm planning on fighting for us until she's married again, but I realistically don't know if I can hold out that long.
In any event, after she left today, I took the dogs for a walk to get some food to eat and I actually began fantasizing about my W deciding after our D that she realizes she made a big mistake and wants me back. I don't know if it would ever come to pass that way, but I'm bouncing around EVERY scenerio right now because I'm not sure where this will go.
I know I may drive her over the edge if I look to get sole custody of my D so my W can get help with her depression and her drinking, but ultimately, if I have to make that sacrifice for her well-being, I will.
I may have to do something like this to have her hit rock bottom because until any of us hit the lowest of lows, we are unable or unwilling to try and change ourselves and our situation.
Well, that is it for now. She just sent me a text asking where I put her phone charger. I had 5 100 gallon tubs for her stuff, do you think I remember which one had the charger in it? I bought clear ones on purpose so she can see where it is w/o digging through anything.
I included a short note telling my D I love and miss her and that type of message will be what I work with in my communciations with my W. Short and simple with her, but always making sure to include a note to my D.
Finally, as for the ex, I can't find him and if I did, I'm not sure he'd be much help. He didn't care enough to even question the 1st divorce too much and I'm pretty sure he's out of state now. I don't know how much help he'd be willing or able to give me right now.
