H and I own business together, still talking

[grid, lost]

Haven't heard from you in a few days. Did you give H the Bday gift yet? D24 came to the house to get some of her mail, W came with her(W picked D24 up from work). They stayed about 2 hours. I didn't bring up R talks at all.

hi mike, i am still here. just needing a few days to think, etc. No I didn't send the gift to H for his B day. Sent him a TM and wish him a happy B day and hope the day would bring him everything he wanted in it. NO Reply !!
Guess I am at a point need to go dark and cut (as much as humanly possible) all contacts with H. He has lead me on quite a bit and given me a lot of depression in process. Enough is enough. So I am going ot let go. Sorta thinking of the 2 yr. mark. as end of waiting and starting to find another relationship. I get awful lonesome by myself, no kids, etc. Want to find someone who would enjoy dog showing like I do. Started a new intense dog class and total focus on handler. Nearly an hour drive but looks like a very good training course. So this is good for my mental well being.
Just feel H is toying with me.

I don't know what dreams mean but the last several nights I've had dreams about W and I. One is about 4 years in the future, W and I are taking GK's to Disney together. GS is about 5 or 6 in this one. Things are great between W and I in the dream. Another is W and I are in a new house and playing kissy face. It leads to a full blown make out session, I woke up before it lead to ML. In this one I don't know if we D'd or not but the separation leading to this was long, I remember that.

Dreams do not know what to say. Myself I often have dreams that are of the future and they come true. Your's are very scarry. Some people really believe in dreams. Some how I believe your W wants to get back together with you. Hang in there. You are doing an excellent job!!
grid, lost

[grid, lost]

forgot tomorrow (sat) I am going to send day with the SPCA at a adopt a-thon for shelter pets. Hope can help them find new homes. Love being with the animals.
Keep your fingers crossed for the dogs and cats.
grid, lost

[micoms]

Grid,

Good to hear from you again. I signed up for coaching today, three sessions, first one on the 13th. Are you taking the training or teaching it?

Had doc appt this week. He says I look great, he can't believe the difference. I told him I feel the same as before surgery no difference. He said I looked like hell after surgery, gee I wonder why. They only cut me open and stopped my heart for 5 hours. How are my dreams scary?

Have fun at the adopt-a-thon. If it's nice tomorrow I might take my lab to a dog park and run her. I take a tennis racket and hit her ball, no throwing my arm out!!

I understand about the depression, I haven't been to the boards a lot, been feeling down too. On call tonight, none as of yet. Maybe that's what H needs to see, you moving on, maybe not waiting on him to return.

W did stop by the house with D24 earlier in the week. I didn't bring up R. Asked her about job in jewelery, she said she doesn't know yet. She said that deli manager is leaving, they want her to take it. She doesn't know. I told her she'd be good at it, she's done it on interim basis when manager is on vaca or one leaves, she has done it for a month. She said she might take it if she can step back if she doesn't like it. I told her I'm sure they would let you step back, you're only the best and most reliable employee they have. If she takes it she will have better hours, she'll have to find someone willing to work her hours.

D24 told me she's pregnant again. Asked me why I haven't called her about it(her BF told me but I told him that's her news to tell me) I think she's excited and scared. She had a miscarriage about 6 months ago. I'm going to be a grandpa again!!! #3. she's due sept 16, one day after my Bday, told her to have it one day early.

Mike

[grid, lost]

I signed up for coaching today, three sessions, first one on the 13th. Are you taking the training or teaching it?

GOOD GOOOD GOOD!! They will help I am sure of that. Even the one time I called in helped. Should set up another appointment. Just believe the coach would say I should do exactly as I am doing. Save a bit of the money for a more important time.

He said I looked like hell after surgery, gee I wonder why. They only cut me open and stopped my heart for 5 hours.

WOW 5 hrs !!!! Had no idea you were in surgery that long. That is a long time !!! Mine was about 3 1/2 and well beyond the anticipated amount of time. But 5 hrs>... oh, your dreams. What i ment was it was sorta scary how the dreams seem to reflect exactly how your stitch seems to be going. The D and W saying you could date after the D. Back together later down the road. Just spookie that is all.

might take my lab to a dog park and run her. I take a tennis racket and hit her ball, no throwing my arm out!!

BTW, speaking of your dog, did you ever try the ear cleaner formula??? since I sent the formula to you have had several people tell me the stuff works wonderful. Just wonder if you had such luck? If so I'll go back and mark the email as a good one to keep.

I understand about the depression, I haven't been to the boards a lot, been feeling down too.

yea, I thought you were fighting being in the same boat as I. That is the reason we must move on in some form with our lives. Or else we will be depressed for ever. YIKES! lol.

Maybe that's what H needs to see, you moving on, maybe not waiting on him to return.

I do so hope so. He is not a fighter for the R so do worry if I go away to much he will figure I never want to hear from him again. On the other hand he is a big boy and knows what has to be if we are to continue. Been nearly year and half so feel i've given him time.

I'm going to be a grandpa again!!! #3. she's due sept 16, one day after my Bday, told her to have it one day early.

AWE, this is nice to hear. Congrads. Will pray all goes well for your daughter and yes I am sure she is afraid. To loose a baby is a terrible thing to go through and takes an awful long time to be able to accept with peace in your heart.
grid, lost

[grid, lost]

Are you taking the training or teaching it?

I am taking the course. First night went well and is being taught by an excellent instructor plus time with each student. Then after each student is evaluated by the instructor the others have to have comments as well. So we are being pushed to watch and learn, big time.
LOL, driving to Ithaca, ny, where the course is,first night SNOW! Ithaca can turn into the north pole in blink of an eye. So all the way up to class, wipers going on car and I keep saying to myself, how bad do you want to win??? How bad do you want to win??? Meaning I pushed myself to keep going so I could be a better handler. lol Guess you have to be in Ithaca to appreciate the story, ...sorry.
grid, lost

[micoms]

Grid,

I did make up the formula and used it, got the ingredients a week ago, it seems to be working well. I've put it in her ears 4 times, the gunk in her eras is about 1/10 of what it was, thanks for the info.

I wonder sometimes how it would be to start dating. I surely miss the company of a female my age, I can't hang with the kids forever, LOL.

It seems W is starting to reconnect with people. She's talked to in over a year. She also called S27 to visit him at his house and see our GD. First time she has been to his house in 9 months or more. Maybe she's coming out of the tunnel, don't want to see too much into it though, she'll probably be moving forward and retreating.

Took Cammie, the lab, to a park and wore her out. Her tongue hadn't hung out like that in quite a while. She'll do anything for the almighty ball!! After I got her home she laid down and didn't move for a couple of hours.

D24 is excited and wary because of the last miscarriage.

Tell me is there a single guy taking the class with??? LOL.

Mike

[micoms]

I wonder if I should get W a valentines day card, try to find one from a friend.

Mike

[grid, lost]

I did make up the formula and used it, got the ingredients a week ago, it seems to be working well.

Good and I will mark my email as a keep. So often one picks up these homemade remedies and when said and done they are useless. Sounds as if you are having good results.

I wonder sometimes how it would be to start dating. I surely miss the company of a female my age, I can't hang with the kids forever, LOL.

the thought of dating is too much for me at my late age. lol on the other hand the thought of never having a companion is really depressing.
Maybe your W will come around. I don't know, seems she starts to then runs away from you and family. Real mess

Tell me is there a single guy taking the class with??? LOL.

Nope unfortunately no single guys!!! On second thought let me check them out again. Seems to me there was a guy about 30, to young several woman and maybe one other guy, not sure. ROFL. this is terrible .
Let you know after next week's class about the male count.
Temp here is below Zero !!! I am out of cigs and it is so cold do not even want to go out for any. This morning temp was about 4-6 below and that is to cold.
later,
grid, lost

[grid, lost]

I wonder if I should get W a valentines day card, try to find one from a friend.

Mike

Are you sure you want to do that Mike?????
grid, lost

[micoms]

Grid,

I put the v-day card thing out there to see what others thought, I don't know if I will, leaning on not. They predicted 2 to 6" of white death followed by ice. Woke up to maybe an in of snow under a crust of ice. So much for the weather mans predictions!!!

The guys 30, are you thinking of robbing the cradle LOL. I kind of feel the same way about dating, just think some company would be nice. Could go on the internet online stuff. I've heard there are some wierdos out there though.

Mike