Moving on from WAS

[mako]

Thanks Minkerman, I agree these are encouraging signs, but I'm staying cautious, no need to get hopes too high just yet. But the latest news is also encouraging.

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This weekend completes the trifecta of unexpected interaction with W.

W called me. The whole call was only about 3 minutes, but she said a lot that was really unexpected. Basically, she apologized for her treatment of me. I'll paraphrase her words:

I'm sorry that I was so cold and business like all the time the past few months. That was how I felt I had to deal with things to survive, but I'm coming out of that now...I know it was very hard for you. I can't take it back, but I'm sorry cause I know it hurt you and it wasn't right.

I'm not going to be afraid to call you anymore, and you don't have to be afraid to call me.
Me: Yeah, a lot of times I had felt that I can't contact you...
Her: You don't have to feel that way anymore, you can call me...

I'm sorry I was such a b!tch last summer [a couple times when we traveled in July and August pre-bomb, I was trying real hard to improve the M. She basically threw my efforts in my face and focused on any perceived negatives, making me feel like crap]. I was such a wreck at that point...again I know I can't take it back, but I'm sorry cause I know I was hurtful.

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I didn't say much cause I was just blown away...actual remorse, and it sounded heartfelt! I just kinda thanked her and said I appreciated it. I know this must have been very hard for her to do, at first she sounded like she was breaking up a little, but she forced herself to deal with something difficult instead of avoiding her problems. I'm a little proud of her for these baby steps.

So again, I am quite happy that she felt comfortable enough to actually open up to me a little by apologizing for some of her actions, and also to actually talk to me because it would have been a lot easier for her to just email these sentiments.

Also, I guess now I have the green light to contact her if I choose. This is really kind of difficult for me since I had become pretty comfortable being dark (by necessity, as she wanted nothing to do with me besides business). I expect I will ease into it, maybe just a call here and there to see how she's doing.