Thanks, I've been reading lots of threads and info, which does help. Have visited pathpartners too...sometimes a little depressing to read! But important info for sure.
"Exquisite hell" is a good way of putting it. Weekends are really tough for me. Sometimes GAL is too much...just need to get by day-to-day. Just don't know what she's thinking. It is so discouraging to not get a more concrete sign of hope. Hard to tell how serious she is about all this. I see that there are some small, positive signs, but I sometimes just have this feeling that it's just not that important a priority to her. I know it's probably not true, but I can't get this idea out of my mind that she's handling everything so well, not upset...I can imagine her thinking about me / us, but not missing me or what we had. (Meanwhile, back at the ranch, I'm feeling like a mess!)
Probably hard to tell from my posts, but I've been working at detachment. Sometimes though, I just feel like I'm the crazy one, since she seems so...okay. There are so many blanks, and so it's hard not to go filling them in with negatives in the absence of positives.
Geez, this has been a rough day for me...just can't seem to get settled. Think I'll go for the mundane stuff like cleaning, laundry just to get me doing something. It's such a strange kind of "alone" feeling.
