I can relate as far as being emotionally drained, but I can also tell you that if you decide you are going to look at things in a positive light then they will appear that way. I know it sounds silly but it is like if you decide you are happy and you smile you can trick the rest of your body and mind into being happy. All just because you started smiling. When I first heard that I didn't believe it, but now I am a believer.
I read the scripture in church this morning. I had never done that before and as the guy who wasn't big on organized religion I can honestly say that my connection with God and the church is helping me make it through this rough time in my life. I am still not an overly religious person, but I would certainly say that I am starting to see the light. And it makes for a great 180 which I am planning on making a permanent change in my life. I think I would really enjoy doing somethings with the church youth group.
I am happy to hear that you think your H is missing being a part of the family and the neighborhood. The Steinkamp book "The Prodigal's Perspective" says this,
"Thinking about going home might be like a bag of popcorn popping. At first a pop now and then. As things heat up the pops become more frequent almost endless. If you will continue to stand and to pray there will come a time when the timer of heaven sounds and your mate will realize they have no option but to come home."
I am going to start eating more popcorn! LOL
Hang in there, you are doing amazing things for your M and family! Your stand for your M continues to inspire me! Pass the butter and salt!
-Bryan
Me-45 W-34 T-5 M-3 1/2 s-10 s-12 ILYBNILWY 12/26/07 Sleeping away from home at friend's house(because she says she can't get any sleep otherwise) 1/14/08 1/25/08 We tell kids she is moving out
