H never showed up, and I never expected him to. H hasn't responded to the email yet either, but really, what can he say?
I am just heartsick about this because church really means a lot to H. At least I thought it did. Anyway, I am going to keep going and try to avoid any questions from the parishioners. H will have to be the one to tell them that he shredded our vows as though they were nothing.
