WAW just left. As expected, she had come over to tell me she thought it was time to move on. It wasn't as bad as I thought, though!
Good things: 1. She said she was positive she was ready to move on last Monday, but felt lonelier and lonelier all week - unspoken message was that now she wasn't so sure. Tuesday was when I blew her off. 2. After I pulled off my speech, she said she'd be willing to go back to MC together. 3. We hugged twice, once by my initiation, once by hers. She squeezed me tighter during her hug. 4. She suggested we go out to dinner this week. 5. She hadn't wanted to stay very long but ended up staying for quite awhile and we just chit-chatted. 6. She picked up on my GALing. 7. She misses being in the house and having a place to entertain. 8. She said OM isn't really pursuing her.
Negatives: 1. I told her I needed to know if she was open to working on the marriage. She said she'd go back to MC together and "thought" she was open to the marriage, but said "that isn't a yes." This should be a positive, except for her last remark. 2. She is excited about her work, which includes OM - told me that C remarked "sounds like you see him as a muse." She said she can't see cutting off communication with him. Unfortunately, based on what she's doing, she's right. It will be very difficult for her to cut off communication. 3. She maintained a relaxed but certain distance the entire time.
So, more positives than negatives, but the negatives are big negatives. Best I can do for the immediate future is keep up my DBing and make that light shining back to our marriage as strong as possible!
