Good for you dippy. We do have to take charge of ourselves in all this. Stand or not stand, either way we have to take care of us.
I am not longer going to see my H as I need to heal and detach completely. My H will continue to hurt me if I do not, and that is on me at this point. In truth, he doesn't know how not to. So it is now up to me to do the work to protect myself and heal.