All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Hi Joie~
Yes, I am detached most of the days. I am not snooping nore checking on him what he is doing when and where... So, it is going well for me and he has been in bad time..---until a few days ago--. He was irritated, pissy mood, nothing going the way he wants... he has money trouble (broke, does not have money to pay for tuition etc) I lend him money here and there past two months ($300 or so.. it is not killing me or anything but strugling as single mom without child support) And he has asked his parents to borrow money to cover his 'college' expense, housing, food. I was hoping his parents will deny him and he will strugle for a little while to get to bottom. I thought spoilled 28-year-old-kid(my H) needs to learn a lessen.

Guess what myH got from his parents.. they decided to give $30,000 college fund, which has been saved for my D7's college fund. So now my spoiled, lost, selfish, unreliable H has $30,000 to spend on stupidest way he can find. Now, he is telling me he will buy a car that my friend is selling. WITH MY DAUGHTER'S COLLEGE FUND! I know I cannot control his life any more and the money was not mine at all.

In my head, I a just keep telling myself "D-busting"

I am mad but I learned to be detached from him and try not to think about what he and his family will do next.

I wanted to go crazy when I heard the news but I just smiled at him and said 'that's wonderful'----in my head "are you f***ing kidding me?!?!?!".

So, I will see how this will go... while I just do my own things.

Beauty