Trying to focus on the positives. Friday night W asked me why I was not going out to see my friends as much. I took this to mean that she wanted a little space. i spent Friday night watching TV downstairs with very little contact with W. Saturday I took my D7 ice skating and then came home prepared lunch for D7 and I and then went out to see some friends. Saturday night I came home prepared dinner for everyone (W, D7 and oldest stepdaughter) and then went back downstairs to give W more space. I can't believe how much W depends on me now to prepare meals. She will definately miss that.... I put D7 to bed at the same time as my W went to bed (the same bed I might add). I did not make any move to hug or kiss W goodnight. I think she noticed. This morning W is in a relatively good mood and is spending the day shopping. I have D7 all day and we will probably go ice skating again and maybe visit my parents. I am feeling a little down or should I say bored. As much as things turned around a little recently, I sense that i am living on borrowed time. The question is how much time. It is very difficult during the weekends to live apart. During the week seems fine. Maybe the weather is geting me down....snow and cloudy....this snow stuff is getting ridiculous.
