Hi - my weekly update.... nothing much new. No contact again from H. H's Aunty called me on the weekend - nice to catch up and lovely that she is thinking of me. She asked me a few questions, and asked me if would consider taking H back. I said I didnt know. Which is true, and I didn't want a yes or a no response to get back to H. The downside was that even that conversation made me feel overwhelming love for H again..... why is it so hard for me to detach?
I also started to clean out the office, which has all of the 'memory' stuff. I'm glad I feel strong enough to actually tackle it - I have been putting it off for a long time. I didn't go anywhere near the millions of photos of us traveling the world together - I know that would be too hard. But the rest of the memory stuff was enough to get me teary.
I don't understand how he could just walk away with only his clothes and a few bit and pieces. I still have all of his childhood things, and his CD's and books etc etc. I guess he just wants to walk away and forget about it all..... I wonder if it is as easy as he thought it would be?
OK - plan is to get through Valentine's Day - then I will have officially done all of the 'days'. I can 'stand' this week, and maybe the week after, and possibly the week after that.....
