Tied to the Whipping Post

[Punktmann]

MMF, no, you're right, she is not my enemy. I didn't mean to sound like she is, what I meant was that I can accept her leaving me, (even if I don't like it.) Leaving and wrecking their lives, I can't accept, I think that is wrong. Breaking a commitment to a self sufficient adult is different than breaking a commitment to your children.

She is my best friend. But she is lost.

The past month has nailed down the fact that she is in MLC, she even admitted it finally.

Even with all that, it's easy to slip back into reacting with anger sometimes. I've gotten very good at not doing that though, and I like that a lot.

I feel good, b/c I haven't felt nearly as much anger lately. I mostly just feel sorry for her that she is in this place.

Sometimes I do feel a little self-righteous anger when she says she wants me to sell the house, move into town and change their schools, I don't want to be controlled I guess.

I don't want to do those things, but if we were to stay married, I would do it for her. This brings the question, should I do it now?

Assuming worst case scenario, the D is forever, I wouldn't.

Things that make you go Hmmmmm.


" The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he did not exist."