Thanks Nik - Yes, I live near Memphis & I'll check into the "meeting." Sounds like fun. Thanks for checking in with me so late. Appreciate the advice.
Thanks Saffie - Thanks for confirming the "no contact" advice. Three heads are better than one!
Yes, she is definitely struggling with accepting who she is. What angers me is that she is "best friends" at this time with her "ex." It's OK to be best friends with ex because ex has had the religious metamorphosis also. A year ago, ex started going back to church (where my GF) goes, they started "working" together in the church, sponsoring events, etc., her ex declared that she would never again be a lesbian, gave away all her books, CDs, anything that reminded her of her "past." Well, GF jumped into that bandwagon headfirst and they're both displaying "cult-like" behavior. Anyway, it hurts that she's back with the ex (although there's no sex) doing things together.
I appreciate you being blunt. I know I need to completely move on and assume she's not coming back. She is young and questioning this for the first time. I have suggested counseling MANY times and she will not get help. She says the Bible is the only advice she needs.
Your insight regarding contact with me making her feel guilty is something I haven't thought of.
About you - 4 kids! You don't have time for much do you? Looks like you and H are living together, happily? If so, I'm very happy for you. And it's very kind of you to continue helping those of us who are struggling just to make it through the day. I'm being a drama queen. Actually, I've been feeling much better. I have moments when I break down or think of her fondly and wish to talk with her, hold her, make love to her. But I've been staying busy and really enjoying life again.
All of you, please keep writing to me. It helps so much. I feel selfish in that I do not reciprocate. I have plans to check on you all soon, I promise. K
