Ran into WAW a couple of times after she sent her email about needing to talk. The first one she'd sent was somewhat kind, but the second was more terse - in reaction to me saying there wasn't anything to discuss. I ran into her when I was out for a run and she acted annoyed and curt. Ran into her again at a lecture and she was very curt and cold. Went up and asked what time she is coming over. Conversation started and she relaxed, though I tried to maintain a certain distance. As I left, noticed she pursed her lips in this way she does when she is battling her emotions - which means what she's going to say won't be good.
So, just musing. Her email was sent late at night - EA now PA again? She is probably going to say she wants a D again, might ask to help me pay for apartment, or might bring up the house. No idea, but it's ridiculous for me to get bent out of shape about her feeling uncomfortable. If she wants to talk about feeling uncomfortable, I have a few things to say myself.
Have been trying to practice for different scenarios. I think the main thing I need to do is not get involved in the conversation. Just agree with everything she says and tell her I'm confused and need to think if she asks me any questions. My usual way of handling convos is to try and get her into that emotional space, and I could probably do that. It seems to help make her question things. But this time I'll try something new and work on my detachment.
I'll be a casual friend, but no more. I'll maintain my self-dignity, confidence, and positive outlook. If she pursues questions about me, I'll try to turn them back on focusing on her. I'll be open to change and to collaborate on moving forward, but I won't be naive or unrealistic about where we're at right now. I'll be consistent and stress that I'm moving forward.
