MLC's come home-part 2

[cagzmom]

Wierdest thing in the WORLD! Yesterday had to see H to get child support $$. He has been sick and this was suppose to be his weekend with D11 but I dont need her having a fever and yuck so its all good.

Anyway, when I saw him I got in his car to go over some "financials". We talked for a bit - he looked like *hit. (he really is sick). We were talking about the final stages of the seperation papers (financial) and he was telling me that he has ruined his credit so bad this past year that he can't even rent a new apartment....he was open and the time was right so I said:
H - it has been a year- in 1 month you can file, are you going to? He said "dont know cagzmom"..I said it is wierd a year has gone by and you seem like your in the same place that you were back in June (suicide attempt) are you happy? he said no first - then said some days...I said inside H are you happy..he said no. I said do u still think about hurting yourself? he said yes...then I said...go to counseling H.

I said this past year nothing has changed for you -you left me because you thought it was me and your still the same. I said I almost need to thank you. I have grown H---if this wouldn't have happened I would not be where I am today...and in a wierd way I think I need to thank you, because I am good...I have grown.

I told him about my new job and he said I am really proud of you... I told him that it was sad for me because i wanted to sahre that with my best friend --- and you are also my x ---- i said I dont have a best friend anymore. He said ..neither do i.. I said you have ow ..he said it isn't the same.....

Then I said H - in this entire thing you have never come out adn said I want a D. Do you? He said ... I don't know...

just was interesting and good for me..