Thanks, everyone. I feel a little better this morning. I've been thinking that we were progressing slowly, but perhaps we're more at a standstill or a crawl. It was a rough week for both of us (busy with work)(D14 is in a challenging stage, too). I know H is really worried about his legal sitch (his court dates have now been postponed 3 times). When I saw the ATM withdrawal my heart literally stopped. That, and everything else that happened this week, brought on my paranoia. Sara, you are right on about sometimes feeling fatalistic and that the M is doomed. I had those feelings the last few days BIG TIME. I think last night they all caught up with me.
We have not talked much lately. I know we need to. I tried to talk to him Wednesday night but he was not very forthcoming. I realize now the timing was bad on my part. I had seriously considered Retro and that is still a possibility. But we one other hurdle to cross first (legal sitch).
As far as if my feelings are justified? I have no idea. He does not call OW much anymore, nor does she call him much anymore, at least when I'm around. But out of curiosity, I checked his cell phone the other night. I have not done that in weeks. Actually, for awhile, he was making sure I could not get to it. Now he leaves it out. Same with his computer. So there is some transparency there. And, he was confiscating his credit card statements from the mail box so I could not see them, and last month when the statement came, he left it out. (We'll see what happens this month!)
