Thanks. He came, he left. Avoided eye contact, didn't ask me how I am doing, nothing. I was looking, good, acted happy and wished them fun. He was friendly but in a typical way.
Lan, I knew you would comment on my PS if you came around us newcomers and read it. I was hoping you would. This guy knows what I am going through. He has been helping cope with work issues all this time I was unable to focus on anything else but my H. And he actually says he won't do a thing before I know what's really happening between me & H. I guess he is willing to waste 10 years of his life (!!) because that's where we are heading. But, we had a discussion when he very frankly admitted what he feels about me, how much he would like to be by mysdie and how much he appreciates me. And that was a very refreshing intermission to all this sh$$t I've been taking from my H the last year. When I got home that night, I was thinking, well, if this doesn't work out, there may be more people out there willing to try to give ME what I deserve. And I wouldn't have to beg, plead or DB for it.
I told you before, I would kill for a hug, a kiss, a caring question, something that would show emotion from my H. Anything would do the trick to keep me going for another year. But besides his changed attitude which remains to the the friendly level, I get nothing, NOTHING. I am not questioning my love for him. But I can't help thinking he probably was honest when he said he doesn't love me anymore. And that hurts.
