Thanks Short, I dont know if I made it clear, but I do not for one minute think that I deserve to be cheated on. Of that I am sure. But I am trying to sort out my responsibility in the breakdown of my marriage. I am doing it for me. So I understand me better, so that I dont do it in the future with whomever I am with. I am trying, in all this, to find and understand me. I am not trying to understand my h because I know it is not possible to get inside another person's head.
