I am finally bringing this terrible day to a close before anything else falls on my head.
After receiving two earlier VM's fm W. I finally (in no particular hurry)did get around to returning her calls.
Her first call informed me that she had followed through w/ her promise fm almost 2 months ago to remove her name fm our former joint acct. And she made reference to "I know why you are choosing not to take my calls". I am sure she presumed that I was giving her the blow off out of anger fm her having served me w/ papers 3 days ago.
The real reason why I chose not to answer her was because I felt that I was in too much of a down mood and was feeling edgey. I did not want to have her pick up on this foul mood as it would be none too attractive to her. So if anything I felt like I was doing her a favor by not answering. It was out of respect for her and also probably adheres to DB principles for me to not answer when you are in a foul mood. I just wish I could have communicated this to her. I didn't feel that it was apropriate to do so however. Anyone have any thoughts on this??
I just keep trying!!
So I called her back just to respond to her request to have me pick up sponsor/foster D14. I told her that it would not be possible this weekend for me to do it. And I further stated that if ever she wanted to call me that I am not making myself unavailable. This was an attempt to rebut her earlier presumption that she felt she knew why I refused to answer her call.
This is without a doubt the hardest thing I have ever been through in my whole life. Actually my life has been, up until now, pretty easy going.
And I would not even have to hesitate if anyone asked me if I would M my wife all over again. Yes, Yes & Yes!!
I am hoping to keep myself in contention to marry her again.
Heavenly Father I place myself before you ready to follow through with whatever plan you have for me to the best of my ability and with a smile.
