No Expectations 4

[peacetoday]

Help
H here tonight..we talked..he fixed stuff..brought us water like 8 cases and gave me money..we starred at eashother a few times
I still feel it I love him im attracted to him(dont know why!) and I sense he feels it too..
but
I get home
D12 says daddy said he doesnt love you anymore
apparently she asked him during a valentines day commercial
D12 asked So are you getting D
he said Maybe so he thought about it
he aslo told d12 hes NOT coming Back!
last time H said Ill never D
I love mom but she doesnt love me..about 6 weeks ago..
i dont want to candy coat it though b/c maybe I am so wasting my time waiting..
It doesnt look like the end result here in my sitch will be reconciliation
and
why are my senses so wrong
when I feel he loves me and is staring at me and is coming here
to visit kids and still see me and connect..how can I be so off
I do yoga and meditate daily..I feel in tune with my intuition and am sometimes right.. I have a good sense about people..why cant I feel i--t everything he says like he doesnt love me
I think im in denial
Like I know he doesnt live here anymore and chooses to not be here
im in denial..I dont get it..sorry I just dont
or maybe there is part of me thaty so doenst want this so I tell myself he will return...H is following his dad and I dont see that changing
help please
peace