H and I own business together, still talking

[grid, lost]

Haven't heard from you in a few days. Did you give H the Bday gift yet? D24 came to the house to get some of her mail, W came with her(W picked D24 up from work). They stayed about 2 hours. I didn't bring up R talks at all.

hi mike, i am still here. just needing a few days to think, etc. No I didn't send the gift to H for his B day. Sent him a TM and wish him a happy B day and hope the day would bring him everything he wanted in it. NO Reply !!
Guess I am at a point need to go dark and cut (as much as humanly possible) all contacts with H. He has lead me on quite a bit and given me a lot of depression in process. Enough is enough. So I am going ot let go. Sorta thinking of the 2 yr. mark. as end of waiting and starting to find another relationship. I get awful lonesome by myself, no kids, etc. Want to find someone who would enjoy dog showing like I do. Started a new intense dog class and total focus on handler. Nearly an hour drive but looks like a very good training course. So this is good for my mental well being.
Just feel H is toying with me.

I don't know what dreams mean but the last several nights I've had dreams about W and I. One is about 4 years in the future, W and I are taking GK's to Disney together. GS is about 5 or 6 in this one. Things are great between W and I in the dream. Another is W and I are in a new house and playing kissy face. It leads to a full blown make out session, I woke up before it lead to ML. In this one I don't know if we D'd or not but the separation leading to this was long, I remember that.

Dreams do not know what to say. Myself I often have dreams that are of the future and they come true. Your's are very scarry. Some people really believe in dreams. Some how I believe your W wants to get back together with you. Hang in there. You are doing an excellent job!!
grid, lost