I have a bit more time to write, now that I'm home from work.
We talked for a long time last night. There was no animosity or blaming whatsoever. She said, "it looks like we will be trying again, but this time if it doesn't work, we are truly done" to which I think I agree. But it will work. Because we have such a connection, and genuinely like and love each other. The big difference now is that we are communicating on a deep level. On the way back to her place, she then said "so when are we having sex?" in a playful way. I said "tonight"...and the rest is history. I thought she would back way off after that, but I've talked to her twice today and she seems fine.
I am hoping it wasn't just the wine and great atmosphere talking...although when people have had a few drinks, their inhibitions reduce and their true feelings come out. So maybe the wine talking isn't so bad.
She told me the reason why she changed her mind on accompanying me last night. She says she sees a new "passion" in me. She also says I have an "edge" that she hasn't seen in me for a long time. This is good information because that is exactly how I feel too. I'm glad she notices it, but I have made these changes for me.
So here's what has happened in the last hour.
I got invited to a Chef's competition in a major hotel today. It's for Saturday (tomorrow) night. Of course I said YES! Sounds like a total blast, 100 dollars a plate fundraiser, and I get to go for free. Sooooo.....I thought, in light of yesterday's events, should I ask W if she'd like to accompany me? Sure...she might feel pressure, but I need to find out where the boundaries are. So far, I am doing what appears to be working for our relationship.
She immediately said "sure, I'm in". So we have another date tomorrow night!
This is really encouraging, and I think that if we continue to gently walk this path, we will get a chance to work on "us" as a couple again.
Oh, and we are going to a hockey game on Valentine's Day...I promised her no cards or flowers, just beer and hot dogs....I think that's why she accepted
I hope this info is helping someone other than me.
