Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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Of course, H thinks the idea of an MLC is simplistic. He says he hasn't been happy in our M for several years and he likes me, but doesn't love me the right way. He was playing a role and now he has uncovered the true him. I don't know--it is so uncharacteristic of him to act like this, to say these things, that when I read about MLC, I think of course that's what it is.

But he is otherwise very responsible--no sports cars or affairs. He is still pretty much as devoted a dad as ever. He is struggling with being unemployed and he doesn't know what he wants to do next, job-wise.

I don't know what he is or isn't willing to do--that changes from week to week. I think he is plagued with guilt for what he is doing to me, but he feels he has no choice.

I read DR and stuff about MLC and it all seems so accurate and right, but then I step back and GAL and I start to yo-yo. I don't plead and sob, but I have spent time trying to get through to him about what sep and D really mean and telling him that I love him and don't want this to happen.

I simply don't know.