I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

I'm not really definite about a timeframe. I told him that I am giving him the time and space he needs now and that I didn't want to set a "deadline". But, I don't know how to deal with the open-endedness and I don't think he's comfortable with that, either. Right now I am not feeling very patient or understanding - more angry and 'disappointed'. One of the things I am p*ssed about is that I have a lot of extra house chores now and he went waltzing off to live in an apartment where he doesn't have to deal with the maintenance issues of a house in the country during a snowy/icy winter. But, then he just called to see if I need him to clear snow off the roof (I do) - so he isn't completely shirking his responsibilities, just mostly. And, I know, compared to those of you dealing with kids and farms or businesses, etc, I have nothing to complain about, so I feel petty and that p*sses me off, too!

I'm hoping to get into a better mood by the time I land in Florida. . . . My folks do know almost everything and that is another stress b/c they were very supportive at first of DB, but now they are getting into "go on with your life." I've planned to just say, "I appreciate your concern, but I need to handle this my way and in my time, even if it means that I am unhappy sometimes." We'll see how that goes. Best strategy is to avoid the talk altogether by being happy and upbeat while around them, but I don't know if I can pull that off. I guess it would be good practice for DB if I ever get a chance to spend time with my H again.

Definitely, time to perk up. Sleep will help with that.