Only a little news from yesterday, but it is big for me!

1)At the end of our MC session, the C asked us, "Last time you were here, we were focusing on this as a separation, and how to tell the kids what was going on and how to handle the kids afterward. This time it feels more like before, where you are wanting to work on the M and focus on that during our sessions. Am I reading you right?"

And H and I BOTH said YES!
He still mentioned the possibility of it not working out, but he also included the phrase "If it didn't, that would suck". So at least he is thinking it would be better if we could work it out. Now we'll have to see if we can.

2)I mentioned to the MC about my desire for more affection, that I am doing my best to give H time and space in our marriage to see what he wants to do, and that I assumed that meant give him time and space on the affection issues, too. She actually said no, I think you need to have a discussion about how you are going to show your feelings to each other during this time. It is okay for you to want affection and to let H know. Then he needs to talk with you about what he is/isn't comfortable with at this time.

So we didn't have that talk, I decided not to bring it up and let H take the lead. So instead of talking last night, he initiated with me. And this time, we were able to "seal the deal"--last time he stopped early before he got to finish. So YAY! I know that sex does not mean things will be fine, I have learned that the hard way, but this is the first time since he said he wanted to "work on things" that we have been together all the way. So that is progress. And he came to my side of the bed and kissed me goodbye this morning for the first time in 8 weeks, too. He barely touched my lips w/his like he was afraid to, but he did it. And I think that is progress, too.............I didn't ask for it or expect it.
Off to Beverly Hills with my sister, back late Sunday. No computer access there that I know of, although her bar association is putting us up at the Beverly Hilton so maybe there is a computer in the room? ;\) Oh, and yesterday sis called from L.A. to say that the Grammy pre-parties are being held at our hotel Saturday night!! Guess I am working on my GAL plan

Me-35

Together: 18 yrs
M-12.5 yrs
S-8
D-4
D'd: Feb. 2010

The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save. --Zeph. 3:17