I have not posted in a while, I have been a little overwhelmed with thoughts and mental images about the OM and W. Yet during the same time things at home have been quite nice, at times even loving in a way. Also, when I do have weak or emotional moments and even some freak outs we have been able to get back on course fairly quickly which is nice.
I think the greatest breakthourgh for me if you want to call it that is that with regards to the OM whom I see twice or three times a week, in case you wonder about my obsession there. Is that now I am coming to see how insecure and he is and that he does not have many friends and on and on. Not that one mans misery makes mine better, but it appears that it will allow me to move on in a way.
This is blabber blabber but so be it.
I also have been away because sometimes reading about other people it makes me so angry to read how selfish and mean the cheaters can be. I feel so sorry and so helpless and wish I could just reach out and shake some sense into all these wayward people. Especially where kids are involved. We don't have any, and I know my pain and hurt so I can only imagine how sad it must be for the children.
That is all for now, I have no idea what, if anything I should do for Valentines, I will not expect anything and just see what happens.
have a great weekend everyone and may there be some sunshine on each and all of us.
