Every storm has a rainbow 7

[Dr LOve]

MMC Buddy,

Man reading you reply sounded like something I would have wrote years ago. And the computer dog date thing surprises me I did not say that. It is something I would have normally has done. But I think part if my problem may have been that for the last few years W has conditioned me by trying to justify her lack of compassion. What I mean is something I would have said or done years ago that would have made her laugh, now became "stupid". Do you know what I mean? It's kind of like when you are with a buddy and he calls you a jerk you may call him one back or just laugh and it's over. BUT if you went to the store and a stranger called you a jerk you would not take it so well.
I have noticed that in the not so far past when we talked on the phone it was short and sweet. And when she talked to others on the phone she was allot friendlier... She is starting to talk to me like that now. I know I have said this over and over that I am getting tired of holding on. What worries me is that I have been getting though all of this by saying "ok I will wait until after son starts school, or "I will wait until after Christmas"
Then what has gotten me to this point is "I will wait until after my vacation". Well that is 7 days away... I am nervous (I have never been away by myself). And I think I may be a little scared because this means that it will be time for the R talk when it is over. I can't easily think of anymore "excuse" I will wait until......time. I am trying to think of this Vacation as the start if something new... But the thought of it being the beginning of the end keeps creeping in.
Hey thanks for the "guy perspective" I think you and I are two of a kind. I could see us going out Galing having a few to many beers and getting into a little trouble.......Are you sure ya can't meet me in Vegas???????
As "Bad" as it may sound me going to Vegas It is just a place I will be sleeping. I am planning on visiting allot of places. (NO Casino’s). Ghost towns, museums, tattoo pallor, the only way I would accept a lap dance is if YOYO, Saffie, LWB, Mattie, Josie, Luv, NikB, Tal, Sues, trying, Root would show up at my door... (Ya I wish)

Later dude and thanks.

Husband