We are fortunate that Michele has this site. Years ago, I don't know what I would have done without Michele and the board. It seemed like no one could understand what I was going through. My best friends were happily engaged, or happily married. At that time, I was invited to six weddings! If you want to vent, this is the right place. Please feel free to share. YOU are not alone! I promise you.
Maelstrom is right, gal. @@@@@GAL!!!!! You need to take care of yourself. Therefore, what could you do differently? Make your *GAL to-Do* list, and concentrate on you! Take on a new hobby, volunteer, visit a bookstore, get a haircut or massage, exercise, try on new make-up, learn a different language, meditate, the choice is yours. *Act as if* you are not obsessed with your marriage rollercoaster. You will feel better. You must take time to uplift yourself. At least, do it for the kids. Remind yourself that you do have a life.
The GAL teaches you self-reliance. If he wants a marriage, grrrreat. But he must come to his senses. The only way is for you to stay away from R issues, and love him at a distance. This is just for now. If you see him, show him the Andabelle who is chipper, independent, with the new look. You will catch his attention! Remember, he married you for a reason. I know, this seems overwhelming. I encourage you to read the posts, and divorce bust!
If you want to vent, this is the right place. Please feel free to share. YOU are not alone! I promise you.