I just want to make it better. . .

[Evie]

I felt like you are now before my trip in January.

You do have more time on your hands to think about the sitch (do we ever stop) without the structure and rountine of your day. I also slept a lot too on my trip. Take a good book to loose yourself in and focus on you and your folks. You can do it. I felt a lot stronger when I got back off my trip, although I didn't realise it at the time (I'm only weakening again now b/c i'm anxious about my trip next week).

Are working to a time frame? - maybe extend your time frame and give him more time?

Up until recently my H was continually contacting me and I think that can be as emotionally hard and draining as no contact at all, it sends out false hope, it was worse b/c it was never to see how I was, it was always to do with work or the boys at times i wanted to scream for him to leave me alone.

Enjoy the break - do your folks know about the sitch?

X Dis