Thanks everybody. I messed up again today. I meant to go dark, but allowed myself to be lured into an angry email exchange with H. Stupid, stupid, stupid! I knew better, but apparently haven't the necessary self-control to do this right.
I am just about at my wits' end. I think maybe I need to be a little selfish for a change, and do this just for me alone, without any expectations that it will effect the R. I need to GAL not defined by my relationship to H. If I can do that, like Maelstrom says, I might not care anymore.
