Since last weekend i've stopped texting w. stopped complementing her. trying to be more distant to her. I don't know if she means to but she seems all high and mighty, everything she says is right.
I saw a L on wed. She says to absolutly stay in house. They dont reccomend legal sep. They say to initialize d. Just dont finalize it. I said i really didnt want to be the one to start it. I told her my w's plan to take tax return and camper $ and split it with me moved out. She agreed thats only maybe 6 month fix then we are back to not affording bills.
I think my first step is seperate finances.
My second may be when my w returns from nc visiting om over valentines day. I may start d.
L reccomended documenting time w spends with kids. This seams wrong, I feel like i have to do it to have a chance with my kids.
L said we have to do whats right for kids. I agree. W is a great mom when she isnt an alien. I am also a great father. We have always made the kids happy and comfortable.
I want joint custody, equal time. L says courts wont award that, that has to be agreed between us. W has already said no to that and got mad that i even asked.
Went ice fishing wed night, I got there before bil and turned on radio. I heard the music and said no. The first words i heard on the radio were 'We dont get fooled again'. made me think of dr. luv and all my db friends. I stayed fishing till 10:00. W called on the way home and asked if i was still fishing i said on my way home. She commented that bil got home earlier. So now she is keeping track of me?
before i went fishing w was on couch and had a ripped paper bag writing on it. i asked whats that. no response. i didnt ask again cause i new it had to do with om. today i was taking out garbage and behind garbage was a printout of a poem something to do with finding the key to her heart. That really hurt. I thought of leaving it out then i asked myself if it will help my m. I did find a card from v day that goes on flowers from last year in the drawer, I did leave that out. That was before any of this om stuff started.
my plans for this weekend are to take ice house to a different spot on river after work. d12 and s8 arent sure if they are going tomarrow. Fish a little tomarrow night. Then a local bar is having a fishing tournament on river sat. bil and brother are going with me. Guys from work are bringing bbq grill. I plan on having fun maybe some beverages, ok alot of beverages. As long as i have someone to drive after. Maybe i should call w to get me. I picked her and gf up on new years night.
Me 37 W 37 D21 D17 D12 S8 grandparents 7/07 boy Married 16 yrs last June 07 Bomb dropped 4/07
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right-for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't", Eleanor Roosevelt
