No Expectations 4

[peacetoday]

Hi
good day today
No word from H
enjoyed a great walk witha friend and kids
went to C
she is helping me finish the grief work
I am stuck 3/4 way
Hardest for me to give up the idea of our family -the 4 of us
now it is 3 of us -but it is healthier than before
I need to finish processing this loss, so I will know what to do next
If H returns I will be ready to start totally over
If he doesnt, I can move on
my life doesnt depend on him
he is sick right now
He is doing what his father did..following the script of his childhood;;his father left and hardly ever saw kids again
untill work is done, there is nowhere to go
I wont be able to really let go
peace