on here it is alot of me telling you guys what is going on in my head. What does he see?? I sees a women moving forward- not needy- doesn't nag- happy- peaceful and nice.
when it comes to my daughter i do have to bring up some issues (ie. sleeping in the same bed with ow on weekend trips, and my daughters desire to be with her dad..) My counselor gives me much guidance in regards to that. my daughter has done well, but sometimes she has asked me to be her voice while she stands next to me.
i love your thought about his underware. made me smile.
Everyone in my life tell me I am stupid - and that I should file. in my heart I truly think he will do it...she will push for it -that I am sure.
what do i want? i want to let go. i want my best friend to WAKE UP from within the monster taht he is living. i want my husband to fall to his knees and become broekn and hit bottom so he can start working on himself.
i want for me to be able to not think about him day in an day out. i want friends in my life that make me laugh. i want to show my kids that i am a woman of character. i want to excercise again like i did for 10 years. i want to do well at my job and get promoted. i want to stop wanting for him to come home and for me to just move forward no matter what.
thank you for reminding me to think about me...
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
