I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

Enjoy your break, the change of scenery and air will do you good, more than you think. Does H know your away?

I'm a little stressed about it. I think the structure/demands of work is keeping me going and I'm afraid of having time on my hands. He knows I'm going and couldn't care less. I've gone away on my own before - I went on a couple of trips last year because he wouldn't go and it was important to me to "have a life". I called him this afternoon to make sure he was planning on taking our dogs while I'm gone. It's hard because talking to him almost feels like talking with someone I "used to know." He is so far away emotionally and I guess this week I am too. At some point self-preservation kicks in and you have to take your heart off your sleeve. I'm also very tired, so I'm sure that's not helping my frame of mind.