JC today, it went well. We spent alot of the time talking about H's family issues (there's never enough time to get through all of those family issues). C did an amazing job connecting those issues to our M and how our parents' M affects our own attitudes toward M. H revealed that he feels like he has to work on his other issues before he can focus on "reconnecting" with me fully. Later, w/C's guidance he recognized that it's not all black and white- he doesn't have to give either 100% or nothing. I told him that I am lonely waking up alone in the morning, I miss him. C asked h if he missed me too and he said yes. Good session. Now I am trying to lower my expectations again.